Welcome Ladies and Gentlemen to My most stressful time of the year.

Yes this neurotic gal has a special time of year where everything goes screaming towards the fan in the middle of my brain that (as it is) is not very stable.

I call this new season the screaming realities that haunt.

At this time of year I become stressed about every little detail in My life at the moment- for example, right now even though I am having fun in my computer class I am stressing about the 4 assessments I have due over the next couple of weeks, whether I will pass this class so that I can do the diploma course next year, what would I do if I didn't pass, what I am going to do for My 21st Birthday party, What I am going as for halloween, where my relationship is going, will my great grandma be ok without me while I am away on holiday, and other such nonsense.

I hear you ask how I am coping with all these questions and the answer is very simple- I am not.

Before this year My stress seasons were not so bad, but now My body is now dealing with the strain.

I've been having severe chest pains which stop me from sitting up or walking around (an entire day in bed is not fun when the tv is to your right and you cant lie on your side)and heart palpatations, headaches, nausea, nosebleeds and even hair loss.

Honestly I know I have to see someone about it, and My doctor has checked me over and recommended that I get proffessional help but I can't afford to. I'm physically falling apart and the money that it would take to fix Me is just too much.

Hopefully I will get better after My season but We never can tell these things for sure.

All I know is I need a few weeks off at a spa.

R